I'm really excited for college.
It's actually kind of weird, though.
I dunno, for me, I didn't see college the same way a lot of MV kids do. It seems everyone here's worried about getting a degree from some Prestigious Institution of Higher Learning so they can get nice high paying jobs and live in big houses and drive nice cars and wear nice clothes.
And like, I could play this high school-college admissions game pretty well, but I wasn't playing it in order to go towards this american dream.
I'm playing it because I want to get out of here, because ever since I was a kid I've been working on this escape and I'm finally pulling it off. Because for me, all those nights studying and afternoons working and volunteering hours were more than anything, a bridge outta here.
I was pretty messed up, actually, up to freshman year. And more than anything, it was because I was stuck, just absolutely trapped, and I hated that.
And at the same time, I'm worried for myself. Because it's like I can't handle that feeling of being trapped, or tied down, but a lot of times that's part of building a life; it's making these connections with people that hold you together but at the same part in some way tie you down and that sometime I really can't handle.
